Still becoming

27 10 2012

Six words rocked my world.

One question.

It pierced my heart.

My mind went momentarily void.
The hole in my heart ached.
My head nodded a silent, yes.
“Are you Eddie the Baker’s widow?”
Mind reeling, I walked out to my car.
Tears threatened to escape my eyes.
Lungs refused to inhale.
The lump in my throat was excruciating.
Seatbelt locked, I turned the engine over.
Words spun around the inside of me.
No. This can not be who I am.
This is who I am… in part.
My journey continues.
No longer wife, no longer half of a whole.
Then who?
Blessed; confident; talented; smart and tender hearted.
Mother; sister; faithful friend; stumbling Christ follower.
Funny: imperfect: creative; grateful.
These are the tools I will use to re-invent myself.
God is not finished with me yet.
I still have a race to run.



One response

28 10 2012

You forgot to add counselor with wisdom to impart. I love you & look forward to all God is going to do through you


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