Self-less.

I am so blessed. My beautiful daughter and her husband drove up from Florida, arriving at my house on Saturday morning. I have had the pleasure of bonding with their 13 year old son for the past 2 weeks. Brandon is a very cool kid. Fawn and Brian are excellent parents. How do you like her red hi-lites? We had some fun in my studio.

So, this morning they all came to the Rock with me and Special Ed. It is the best feeling to sit in church with family who actually wants to be there.

Pastor B shared a great message about being self-less. I was convicted that I need to get over trying to protect myself from hurt feelings and get back to ministry. I pulled the reigns waaay back on myself after a few hard knocks and the result of my last church closing it’s doors because of some serious problems. I pretty much decided that I was not going to help anyone do anything anymore. Ever been there? It is really a tough place to be. Especially when your anointing is to minister to hurt and broken people. I became a hurt and broken person myself. I realize that I have held on to the fear for too long now. It is time to get over it and get back in the saddle. Oh, the bronco is still gonna try to buck me off, but I can’t stay on the ground any longer. People all around me at the Rock are finding ways to be a blessing to people and I need to do the same.

My daughter and son in law are a tremendous inspiration to me.

I realize that sharing this, right out loud like this, kinda sets me up to follow through with what I am saying here. I am praying that the Lord will direct my path and show me what to do next. I am not going to just go back to what I was doing before because I was obviously doing something wrong. Besides, I don’t want to get stuck in a rut of trying to reproduce the old thing; I want to move on to the new thing that God is doing. Likewise, I do not want to run ahead of God and be doing in my own strength and wisdom. Frankly, I am just not that strong or that smart.

God has been so incredibly awesome in my life that I want to share His goodness with others. He will lead me one step at a time. He knows the plans He has for me. They are plans for good and not for evil. I trust Him completely.