Movie magic hair

Every  day of my life, I struggle with a lack of self confidence. I can sit here and write that I do believe that I am a good hair stylist. Why then, when I get out there on a movie set, do I feel like any minute they are going to discover that I am clueless? I am such an approval addict sometimes and it robs my joy. That is the big thing that I am trying to correct in myself lately.

It is interesting how, once you see something in your personality that bugs you, you begin to see it in many more areas than you ever suspected. Personality flaws seep into all aspects of our lives.

Low self esteem is a drain on the folks around you. Personally, I like to be around confident people who are not always second guessing themselves. I recognize the importance of remaining humble yet not doormat-like. It is this balance that I am reaching for.

While I am in Va. next week, I will be talking with a brilliant hair stylist who has written a book about period hair design. I met Jerry on the movie The Notebook and I loved him immediately. Maybe it was his Boston accent which I missed so much. I would meet him for breakfast on most Saturday mornings and listen to him talk about why the women wore long hair in the 1940s and how the Victory Roll hair style became popular across the nation. I could listen to him for hours which is very fortunate for me because he is a wealth of information.

Jerry, along with several of the long time members of my union, are forming classes to teach our union members how to create hair styles of different periods and he would like me to be one of the teachers. I am thrilled at this opportunity. I will engage in seminars put on by these talented and knowledgeable designers and then be able to pass on what they have taught me.

I feel like God has allowed me to see this self confidence weakness at just the right time. I have had a few years to be working on it to prepare myself for a time such as this.

Are you aware of a character flaw that has potential to hold you back from fulfilling your goals in life? You don’t have to name it but I am interested if anyone out there is dealing with the same kind of things I am. Or am I just being too sensitive?? I’ll be looking for some comment luv.

to tweet or not to tweet

• So, I am not too sure about this twitter thing. Although I am quite satisfied that I managed to sign up and figure out a few things (with the help of one of my techno-geek buddies) I am not really certain that I like the whole idea. I like to get feedback when I comment about stuff. This kinda leaves me dry.
• I will be going to Va. on Sunday to work on a movie called The Box. Story takes place in 1976. I love doing period hair. I will be working with a couple of good friends too.
• I have lost another pound. Still tweaking the food plan so it benefits me better. I am encouraged.
• Plan to live to a ripe old age.
• I have had lots of medical tests done this week. Yesterday, I had a CT scan of my liver. I am wearing a heart monitor right now that is a nuisance. It comes off at 1:00 tomorrow. The Md, wanted to book me for chest xrays this week but I refused them. I worry about too much radiation and it’s not like I have anything wrong with my chest that needs checking. If it ain’t broke, don’t xray it.
• Hoping Ed will continue to eat healthy while I am gone.
• Started reading Blue like Jazz by Donald Miller. No comment yet.